30 Day Challenge- Day 3

Day 3: Your first love

What an interesting coincidence that I would be writing about this today. Let's see....my first love, well I guess I can say it's everything I could have wished for. Except for the part of it being followed by my first broken heart.

My first love happened in high school when I was 17. His name was Brandon...and he's everything  could have wished for at the time. We were together for a little over 2 years and he taught me so much about myself, how to love and how it feels to be loved. Like most high school relationships we didn't last long after high school ended. It's started getting hard and we both just started going down different paths. Though i'm not a fan at all of how it all ended I guess it was how it needed to be at the moment. Looking back now I have nothing but good thoughts and feelings towards the relationship we shared, and though it ended pretty bad there are few things I would change. One thing I do hate about it is the fact that we havent talked or seen eachother in almost a year. It's difficult to go from talking 24/7, being best friends to basically nothing the next day. Though it's what had to happen to help us both move forward I still have times where I wonder what's new with him or if he ever thinks the same about me. I've thought of calling or texting but then I don't for fear what would happen or how it would turn out, would he even answer or just ignore it.  At the end of the day though, I believe everything happens for a reason so maybe one day we will truly be friends, or maybe our lives have changed too much already for that to happen. Who knows if he will ever even see this post.

Dang, this was kinda hard, i'm not a fan of overtly emotional stuff. Like I said in the first post i'm going to be completely honest and put what I think and feel into this no matter how vulnerable it may make me, or how much i hate feeling that way.


See you again tomorrow!